The Positively Pessimistic Writer

My alarm was going off and I'm thinking to myself, what the hell is that?

It's 6.05am and time to write my blog. I could have just turned it off and taken another few minutes in bed but that would make me a lazy writer.

YOU'LL NEVER GET ANYWHERE IF YOU DON'T GET THE FUCK OUT OF BED!

That's what my new book says. Perhaps not in so many words. Ha ha. It is great but also hilarious. It's called The Positively Productive Writer by Simon Whaley. A got it me, of course. I don't think I could ever reasonably pick up a book with a title like that, being an eternal pessimist. But.......I am pleasantly surprised.

Despite all the patronising pleas of YOU CAN DO IT, in capitals and sometimes bold print, there are some interesting strategies. And just taking them on board in the last 2 days has enabled me to write 1600 words towards book 2 of The Last Imagining trilogy and begin the drudgery that is: editing book 1, again!

I seem to be slowly getting back into the frame of mind I was in a couple of years ago, when I wrote the first book, which is much needed. I hadn't really done any writing this year what with being buried under 13 key children's portfolios (bearing in mind they have 2 each and are mostly full and heavy). But now I have only one left to update and I can feel the pressure of that stress dropping off me, leaving my head clearer. Allowing those thought processes that I need for a jolly good writing session. So watch this space......I could be asking some of you to read through re-edits or read through some book 2 stuff.

I have even been contemplating an MA in Creative Writing and have done a bit of research and found one that could be perfect for me, and you can do it part time in the evening so I could still work....Mmmmmmm.
But this is just a pipe dream at the moment and may never materialise.

What's weird is that all these things are POSITIVE. Does that mean the book, (and I'm only half way through it) is somehow brain washing me to become more positive. To achieve my goals and discipline my time more effectively? Does that mean no more pessimism????

Yeah right. Come on, I can find the negative in any situation, but if this slight change in attitude could get me further along with the books then so be it. But don't worry, I'll probably read through what I wrote yesterday and decide that it's a load of crap and that I'm useless and I can't write for shit! Which means I'll have been positive for a grand total of 48 hours. To be fair though, I think it could be the longest time on record....if I don't cave before then. He he.

And now for something gravely distressing.........My hairdresser has left the Kutt Zone. (Gasps of astonishment). Daniele-magic-hands can no longer cut my hair.Which means that I can no longer have my hair cut. End of story..........

Okay, maybe that's a little drastic but really, who can I trust now?

I was so shocked when it happened. I went in to book an appointment.I should've known something was wrong really. They'd had a revamp to the salon and all the prices and stuff were now displayed on the window and........change is never good. I went to the desk and said: "I'd like to book an appointment for later in the week with Daniele."
"I'm sorry he doesn't work here anymore. He's gone back to Italy."
AHHHHHHHHH. My brain went into shock (literally) and I became a bumbling mess. I couldn't get my words out.

I was like "Oh. Right. Okay. Erm....."
And she had her sales face on. "Well there are lots of other great stylists."
Ha! She has to say that. But they're not him.
I bumbled on for another few seconds before saying, "I'll have to think about it and get back to you."

Pathetic I know. But I can't cope with change and it took me 27 years to become comfortable at a hair salon. If I have to wait another 27 years, not only will I be 54, but I'll be in the Guinness Book of Records for having the longest and shittest looking hair.

Okay, enough melodrama for one morning. How was everyone's Easter? I'm hoping the Bank Holidays were kind to all. Or to most.

I got to meet up with some lovely old friends from when I used to work in a nursery in Manchester. I also went to see H and J's new flat in Salford which is a stone's throw from where I used to live. Oh the memories. And I met up with Charl, E and A. Oh, and my friend from Denmark came over to visit his dad, which was great! Me and mum spent most of Sunday and Monday looking through old photos for a top secret event  and my brother and his girlfriend came for a roast on the Sunday. So all in all it was a busy but lovely weekend.

And what's even better is that some kids are still on holiday, or off with chicken pox, or just not turning up to school, which is fab! Because there are much less children in. In fact yesterday there were 15 instead of the usual 25. Whoop! I've actually quite enjoyed my last two days at school. I know. The shock........

I bet it's that bloody books fault. Ahhhhh. It's making me positive in all aspects of life. Bollocks!

Well, we'll see just how long that lasts.........

skank. I never buy new stuff. I just wear the old stuff until it actually disintegrates. Which means I should easily get another 5 years out of these.)

Oh and awesomely, my manager gave me tomorrow off as I've done so much over time recently and we don't get paid for it. So she said she'll give me 2 days off. One tomorrow and we'll arrange another one. Woo Hoo!
So I'm thinking perhaps.....A WHOLE DAY OF WRITING! Yippee!

Have a great Thursday and remember YOU CAN DO IT. (Whatever IT may be for you.)